I’ve been slacking a little on doing the blog. Things are just really insane 24/7 around here. I know that there are plenty of stories of single parents who have gone back to school, so I know that this is doable. That being said, it’s so difficult that it’s almost impossible. On one hand, I love my jobs (yes, both of them), my schoolwork is fairly easy so far (all intro classes), and the kids are both well. It’s not the individual tasks, it is the sheer VOLUME of tasks. Changing gears 200 times a day.

A common afternoon scenario looks like this:

• go to 1 PM business class 10 minutes early, set up laptop for notes
• check my email- have 2 or 3 work emails.
• hurry to do them, finishing up while professor takes roll
• after class, go to my work-study job at Big Bros
• send in my updated spreadsheets for my daily 3 PM deadline with regular job
• Bigs til 5:30 or 6
• home, kids home, dinner
• kids homework, baths, try to spend some quality time
• 8 PM bedtime for kids
• start on my own homework or so zombified that all I can do is stare at a TV screen or almost fall asleep drown in a bathtub

Sigh. Like I said, I know I can do this, it’s just requiring time management skills that I never even knew I had in me. Constant adjustments, always scrapping by to pay bills because it’s impossible to log enough hours with actual paying work to have any disposable income after bills. I try not to complain because I know that it’s only going to get harder, regarding course work and intensity of classes. I also know that I’m in this situation due to my poor decision making early in life, and this is my chance to make it all right.